; you told me i was pretty when i looked like a mess, today was a fairytale.

- she's not like that now. she knows better. she knows now that people lie & promises can be broken as quick as they are made. she understands that she might never be loved & too quickly, good things fly in front of your eyes before you can reach out & grab them. she knows that you can't change or help time, so every now & then, it'll just run out. there isn't a place for everyone in the world, so if you're standing alone for a while, that's why. not everything in life comes easy, but when you work the hardest, that's when it's your best. you can't always expect people to care & even when your best friends stab you in the front, don't think for a minute they didn't already aim for your back. they missed for a reason. she has found out too soon, that in the end, you are your own best friend. everyone will be broken at some point in their life, & more often then not. it's gonna hurt like hell, but you can't stop it. you can't change your own fate. some things are meant to be & all the pain you go through will end up resulting in something huge. you don't know what it is & when it happens, it'll hit you like a ton of bricks. at some point, when you have experienced everything you can, the words "life" & "risk" won't mean anything to you anymore. but don't try & change that. stuff like that is meant to happen. over time, certain things no longer have an affect on you, & that happens cause that's the way its suppose to be. but you'll learn all that later in life when little things like a sunrise or a spring rain start to matter. but it might catch you off guard & happen sooner. i mean, ask her. she knows.

- No one said it would be easy, but no one told me it would be this hard --if you knew you were going to break me, you should have left at the start.

- don't waste you time worrying about boys, boys will come and go. don't waste your time caring about the people who don't like you. chances are, you don't like them either. don't waste your time worrying if people are talking about you. you affected their lives, they didn't affect yours.

- when people try to bring you down, they try to completely destroy you. you've cried as hard as you could possibly cry. you don't know what you did wrong. you ask yourself why? what did i do to deserve this? so, when life throws you something unexpected, you just have to keep your head up

- when a promise is made, it is meant to be kept.

- i needed to know that i meant something, anything to you. but what i got was nothing, absolutely nothing. and it’s funny the things you realize when someone walks away. at first you feel as though it’s your fault. feeling like nothing, so close to falling apart. and then, in time, you come to the realization that you did nothing wrong. that it’s his loss, that you are so much better without that one boy who didn’t ever care. you live and you learn, that’s how it is.

-  We lose people we love because they are meant to love someone else. We lose them because we are destined to find somebody else. It is a simple fact that is sometimes hard to accept because we are too stupid to let go.

- no girl should ever forget that she doesn’t need anyone in her life that doesn’t need her.
--Marilyn Monroe

- i do my thing and you do your thing. i am not in this world to live up to your expectations and you are not in this world to live up to mine. you are you and i am me, and if by chance we find each other, it's beautiful.

- It's funny, I can't tell you how many times I spent wondering when I was gonna hear you say that again. Just hoping that the next time the phone would ring, it'd be you calling to say those words. And now you're here and I can't even remember why I needed to hear them. You should recognize this next move, you perfected it. It's called turning my back and leaving you behind.
-One Tree Hill

- you should recognize this next move, you perfected it.
it's called turning my back and leaving you behind.

- You love someone, you open yourself up to suffering, that's the sad truth. Maybe they'll break your heart, maybe you'll break their heart and never be able to look at yourself the same way. Those are risks. That's the burden. Like wings, they have weight, we feel that weight on our backs, but they are a burden that lifts us. Burdens which allow us to fly.
-Bones

^ ahahha i love this so much.

<3 so, me and jesse are wonderful. ahah okay not wonderful, but we're doing good! it was nice seeing him. i missed him. i always miss him. its so weird, i spend the weekend with him, and the moment i leave his side, i find myself constantly missing him until i get to see him again. it was so nice, we were in his room, and i was laying on his bed and he layed next to me, then he had to get up and do something. and he kissed my forehead, and was like " i missed you." i like him so much, and i'm trying my hardest to be nice and not fight and not bring up things that i know will make him mad, and i'm trying not to think about... that girl....

   he quit his job, and he was sad. i had to leave @ 4:30, and then it was like 4:25 and he was talking about how sad he was and hr was like " and now you have to leave me." and i was liek "noooo, sad. ill see you soon though" and then he stood up and pulled me up too, and hugged me tight and kissed me. and i kissed him again and it was the longest, hardest kiss. and then i felt him smile. and it was the happiest thing ever.

<3 hes great, and i like him lots.  and thats good, because i have not liked anyone for a very long time. this is probably the most ive liked someone since.. ben like two years ago. so, its good and hes happy with that. because it makes him feel "lucky." i feel lucky to have him, because hes great, and makes me happy.<333

i'll update sometime sooooon. comment plzzzzz.

<333 crys.

ps, my prom theme is under the sea (N) .. grrrrrrrreat